evolution
posted on february 27, 2026
Since mid-january, I have had trouble staying rooted in my ideals: ecology, simple living, low-tech, etc.
I lived a long time trapped inside the virtual, trapped by the Internet. I was detached from reality. Over time, through actions, ideas, I detached myself from this bubble to re-integrate reality. I replaced Internet by real activies: reading, writing, meditating, etc. And after a negative event: I felt like everything collapsed, I dropped these activities to return to my old bad habits: it scared me.
I talked to my psychologist about it, and he told me: “We never fall back to the lowest, some ideas are consolidated, and we bounce back on it with new ideas.”
By a simple example: I am interested in cooking everything myself; to avoid industrial food as much as possible. Because I have my own ideas about this: it’s not good for health, it’s not nourishing, it makes plastic waste.
- Negative event: I will no longer be able to cook my weekly chocolate cake
- Old habit: I am going to buy industrial cakes, while I know that it is bad for health, the planet (previous consolidated idea)
- Positive event, again motivation: I bake my chocolate cake, what if I made my own cream to go with it? (new idea)
- And so on
I will probably never forget my beliefs.
In recents days, my life has slightly changed, towards a positive axis:
- nice weather again, the birds are singing
- I have some new pretty vintage rugs
- I want to read again, I bought Ted Kaczynski’s manifesto.
And I learned a sentence, which resonates in me like a mantra, by Mustapha Khayati: “Vive sans temps mort, jouir sans entraves”, translated by “Live without downtime, enjoyed unhindered”. It motivates me a lot.